Overheard in the car

Olivia:  We all have germs.  I have germs, you have germs and mom has germs.  Ava has the most germs cause of always itching her butt.

Ruby:  EWWWWWW!!

Ava:  well, my butt always bees itchy!!

Today

Today I ran all the way to the social security office to change my name and was told that they can't help me because the stamp on my document is the wrong color.

Today I had a nice clean and good smelling house so I decided to clean the oven.  It must have been awhile because now the entire house is smokey and smells like toasted ass hair.

Today I was proud to be home in time to have lunch ready for my preschooler and she said NO LIKE IT NUGGET when she walked in the door.  Then she ate 9 of them.

Today I have seen RIO twice.

Today I planned on running on my treadmill but will probably settle for Rio a third time.

Today I laughed 100 times.
Today I smiled all day.
Today I had coffee with my favorite 5 year old in the world.

I can't wait for tomorrow

Cupcake wins

I tried to tell myself "self, if you had something better to do then you wouldn't be eating that cupcake" It didn't work because I am capable of doing most things while eating a cupcake.

Well I did one thing on my list. Unfortunately it was drink excessively

OO OOO OOO and I made cupcakes!!!!!

I did get the kids registered for school, no uniforms still. Everyone in the office says """The codes should work""""

Um... well... they don't

Did I mention...

School uniform logos must be embroidered on! No patches...etc...

I once sewed my underwear all shut

CHARTER SCHOOLS ROCK!

my kid made it!! Whew... under the wire. I was so afraid of her starting middle school. I know in my heart that she needed this. This school will cater to her creative soul and nurture her strengths. A school of the arts. This may mean the difference between a gas station job in her future and a shot at a doctorate. Thank you universe!

So.. i have to make lists to sleep. here is my to-do list for tomorrow

Shit to do

Go to the store for toilet paper and lightbulbs... maybe throw some food in there too

Go to schools: need birth certs, shot records and proof of residency

Get my TB test read by random nurse

Drink excessively

Mortgage papers

School loan

Find out how to get the stupid school logo on my kid's uniforms

buy said uniforms

Rebuy all her school supplies since I bought the list for dreaded middle school

my kid needs a jump drive and headphones..... HOW COOL IS THIS SCHOOL????

Judgment day

I was told today by a Dr that my freak factor was high. I guess I deserve this. It is an interesting concept to think about the way you portray yourself to the outside world. I guess I have thought about it a lot but have never been able to really grasp what it is when other people see me. I have varying ideas about what it is that I actually want to be seen. It is probably very basic. I am sure it is only the tattoos that people see, and that is alright. I think it is easier to know that nobody is truly looking into my heart. Sometimes I don't feel like there is much to see. I feel empty sometimes. My dreams are all expectations of the way things are supposed to be. My world is a reflection of what not to do. I don't really have much envy for those who have more, only curiosity of what it must be like to see through their eyes. I have moments of judgement, but for the most part, I understand somewhat what it must feel like to be in some others shoes. I know the feeling of acceptance that comes with drawing all of your resources together only to come up empty handed. I know the desperation of trying to make 5 dollars into 500. I know how it feels when your life stretches out in front of you as a big question mark. How time slips through your fingers and the things you should have done, mistakes you make all add up to one question. Why does this never work out how I planned? I watch the sadness caused by all consuming addictions that in the end, even consume your personality and I know that not everyone was born with intelligence and resourcefulness in their toolbox of life. Not everyone can grow up to be successful, there must always be people who just do it wrong. I tell these things to my coworkers in the hopes that I am responsible for one kind word, or one kind thought. I don't know if anyone is listening, but apparently, I have a high freak factor.