Elusive days

Trying to eke out the last bits of childhood before it’s gone forever.  Little moments of time when their friends aren’t looking are the part of their lives that is still mine.  Family traditions that never fail to bring them out of their shell are the spaces in which my happiness resides.  Life is full of difficult choices, compromises and change right now.  It is terrible, wonderful, frightening and exciting all at the same time.  I exist in both terror and joy, apprehension and exhilaration.  

Kid-less most days

It’s not really hard to find things to do.  

First day of school

Look at my nephew 😍😍😍. He is so proud, also he has a black panther backpack.  Avery told him he liked it and he said “thanks for liking my backpack”. 😍🤣

Love where you live

Sometimes I think I will always look for someplace better.  There are so many things that I would change about the place we live.  Someday we will say goodbye to Idaho and it’s 10 year behind mindset and confederate flag nonsense.

Someday I will live in a place that has my best interests in mind. 

  Until then, I will choose to love the things I have and the beauty I find around me.  

Best present ever

This year for Christmas my beautiful husband bought me literally the best present I have ever received.  Apple air pods are amazing.  I have them with me all the time.  

https://hackernoon.com/airpods-and-why-theyre-a-beautiful-disgrace-dbf4a83c5b6f

Restrictive lifestyle

I love this dog with my whole soul.... however she is on a diet and is driving me crazy.  



She loves to run and play at the dog park and is an active animal.  She is also just as happy sleeping all night with Avery and then sleeping all day with me.  She loves when I work nights.  This last year she had gotten quite fat and was having a difficult time with mobility in her back hip.  She has since lost most of the excess weight but thinks about food non-stop.   As I write this she is delicately sniffing the ambiance of the kitchen trash.  The kids call her trashhound.