I have had 2 lovely weeks off with my kids. Not really a vacation.. but rather a lack of work holiday. I am still getting paid.. more actually to stay home cause of on call pay but running quickly out of paid time off. I really feel that the longer I stay home though... the less I want to come back. It is a vicious circle!! The time that I have had though has been great. I have enjoyed every minute of being the mommy, not having to say goodbye to a screaming Ava in the window and getting to play with Ruby and her happy 1 year old self. I remember all the reasons I didn't want to stay home full time, but now I wish I could at least work less. Full time is a lot of time to miss. My kids are wild, yet sweet beyond belief. They are all so different yet mirror some of the values and beliefs I have tried so hard to instill in them. I treasure this time.. time they want to spend with me before age and maturity leads them to the realization that I am boring and uncool. Before they know I am imperfect and that I don't always know what I am doing. I guiltily call in for another available day... knowing that I can make up the pto but won't ever get this time back with my sweet sweet children.
